lurving life to the fullest

.....misunderstood.....

2012-01-31T01:07:00.001+08:00

Hate being misunderstood... Especially by him.. Haaizzz...All I waned was for him to draw a line between him n her.. Is that so difficult for him to do? He kept on saying... "I've known her for sooo long! We're just good friends!" a married person n a single person is different u know! Yes you've known her when she was single... But she's married now! So there should be a limit! I told u again and again... But u just shoved me away asking me to 'Fuck Off!' is that how u speak to ur GF?? I'm sick & tired of u treating me this way! It's been 1 WHOLE day since u last msg me... I SMSed u 12 hrs ago... But u simply ignored.. & suddenly i saw u posting on FB something harsh.Okay... I get... U wanna make me beg for u right? Like what I did the last time?? U think I'm that stupid???!! U got the wrong girl man! I've changed! I'm not that stupid & innocent girl who u dated before! J used to keep quiet when u scolded me or get angry... I used to just look down & take every single scolding,harsh words, & vulgarities u shouted at me.But now, I'm no longer that person! Now I'm just gonna keep quiet & see who calls who first. It's not gonna be me k?U wanna ignore me?? I'll ignore u back!! I can survive w/o u! B U S T A R D ! ! ! ! YOUFUCKOFFASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!

very sad....

2011-11-28T01:20:00.001+08:00

28/11/11. Not a day to remember... 1) BF hung up on me... He took the things I said too seriously till he got mad.Was just kidding.... :(2) Ibu is still ignoring me.... 3) juz realized that out of the 5 family members, only 2 wished me happy bday on my 25th bday (08/11), ayah & fizah. Ibu, ain & anwar didn't even SMS..yet alone wished me.. ;( but I had a great tym celebrating with dearie's family... Dear even bought me a cake! The 1 & only Cake on my 25th bday... :( I thought this year was gonna be a great bday celebration... But I guess everyone's bz huh..?I'm crying my eyes out now.... Don't noe y my life turns out to be this bad.. I'm 25 already... Still not married yet... My Sis is getting married before me!! Oh my!Haiz... I guess that's life right..? Gonna cry myself to sleep tonight... *sob*

haaaiizzzz....

2011-10-18T16:15:00.001+08:00

Went to BCP briefing in the morning at NLB... Ended at 11am... Had lunch with Isyah... And went back to office to rest for a while before going for a short Sign Language briefing at TPPL.. Haaaiizz!! So tired of traveling!! Luckily they didn't ask me to do counter...I'm in the sign language room now...the person teaching the sign language is kinda funny.. Haha...

Dear going for fishing trip ay Tanjonh Pinang...

2011-10-13T10:43:00.001+08:00

Today he went for his fishing trip to T.Pinang... With Anuar... till Tuesday.Haiz.... 5 days w/o meeting or talking to him... It's going to be a boring weekend!!!*sob* *sob*

TRUST

2011-08-11T01:44:00.001+08:00

Just so u noe... My trust to u has dropped to ZERO again.. Gd luck climbing ur way back up MF!!

shitty shitty shitty day!!

2011-08-10T09:48:00.001+08:00

What a way to start the day.. Haiz..Late for work... Again.. Woke up at 8am and I start work at 8am!! What the hell??!! This fasting month dun seem to go well for me though... :(Trying my best to make the best of the rest of the day... Gonna celebrate one of my fren's bday later on in the evening! Hope that it will go smoothly... Still dun know what to get her.. Hmmm....

im happy again! <3

2011-08-10T02:22:00.001+08:00

I'm happy again... After all that he has done to me... If actually makes me stronger by the day... Now I know why they said (in Malay):"Ade hikmah di sebaliknye"...I never regret being with you.. Just so u noe... Coz it actually opens up my eyes to the world.. *arse hole"!!P.s; I love you dear.. So much!

turning 24 on 8th Nov 2010

2010-11-10T01:02:00.004+08:00

well...it was a birthday well spent..
with family..frenz...and loved ones....

got a few gifts..and i loved every single one of it!!
-a Coach bag from dear sister, fizah...
-perfume from mummy...
-a handphone holder/charger from brother, Anwar...
-Red mango bag & purple River Island wallet from the gurlz!
(Rin, Hudz & Zu)

and...oh yah...
I AM SOOOOOOOOO OVER HIM!!!

and im HAPPY!! ^__^

confused

2010-10-19T05:25:00.002+08:00

dont know what to do...
trying to think positive...
taking things slow and easy for now...

what happens...happens...

cant be bothered anymore....
coz i dont want to stress myself no more.

what goes around...comes around...
and KARMA is a bitch!

getting over someone is never easy

2010-10-04T11:07:00.001+08:00

I need to get over him NOW!!N i really mean now... Its killing me emotionally...I hate u.

im sad...again

2010-09-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

i just saw something which i shudnt have seen....

i feel very useless....

u shudnt have....

i hate myself.

wtf

2010-09-29T17:11:00.001+08:00

To think that u wud even dare to say her name in front of me, makes me wanna KILL YOU!!!!!Arrrgghhhh!!!!!!!!!I soooooooo hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this feeling sucks

2010-09-26T02:54:00.002+08:00

why is it sometimes...

i feel that nobody cares....

i hate this feeling...

it sucks!

Ayman!!!

2010-09-24T23:29:00.001+08:00

Went to hannah's house for raya just now.... The Cute ayman was soooooooo super active! Kept running here n there...and he makes us laugh til we wanna explode! Soooooooo cute!

Hari Raya 2010

2010-09-20T22:40:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all!!

down.angry.sad.disappointed.

2010-09-15T21:44:00.001+08:00

I hate this feeling.It's not that I don't want to... But it's freaking difficultI noe I'm not the same as my other 2 sisters... I'm not as pretty or as gorgeous as them.. I'm trying my best to lose weight... But u hv no idea what I go through everyday.If you r embarrassed by me, just say it to my face. I noe u want to say that he left me becoz of my appearance. Right???? In freaking pissed off with everybody in this stupid house. Don't make me do something tat everyone will regret.

hurting inside

2010-09-13T00:38:00.001+08:00

It's a wonder how fast someone is able to get a replacement for their broken relationship.. Even after they said that they're not able to forget u... Or even after they said that you r the only one he loved.Promises are meant to be broken... -that's what they usually said.. Then what's the point of making promises in the first place? If you're gonne break it in the end?Sometimes I dun noe who or what to believe..I'm heart-broken.... Again...

crushed

2010-08-06T22:08:00.001+08:00

Should I give up?Coz I have no hope anymore

Bali....here i come!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

the day that ive been waiting for....
its here!!!
26th July 2010

will be going to Bali with Rini, Lia and her family..
cant wait for this trip..

need to relax and destress my mind..
got to much on my mind right now...
gotta go pack my luggage now!!
hehehe... flying off in less than 24hrs!!

Yeay!!!! cant wait!!!

B L A N K

2010-07-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

my mind is completely and totally blank right now..

dunno what to do....

dunno what to think....

all i know is, my Bali trip is coming...
5 more days in spore...

and then its gd bye everyone...
i'll be gone for about a week from work...
and then straight to HELL again...

haiz..... thinking of changing job,
but maybe not too soon.. (need to get more experience n years first)

politics....politics...politics.....
*faints*

its hard...and you know it...

2010-07-12T23:32:00.004+08:00

its really hard to go thru this alone...
i knoe i have to...but its never easy..

sometimes i feel like giving up...
but the thought of u guyz...
makes me not wanting to give up...

dun let him win!
my heart says that everytime....
everytime i feel like giving up....

but at the end of the day,
its still at the back of my head

no matter how far i throw it away
it will still keep haunting me.

sometimes i feel like killing you.
y did i ever meet someone like u??!

i thought u would make my life easier...
i thought YOU were my LIFE...

i am thankful that i have my wonderful frens around me...
you guys have helped me lot in this complicated situation..
i am thankful....but i feel that nobody can help me except for MYSELF...

its really hard for me....it really is...
no matter how much u tried to help me and console me...
it actually doesnt work.

my self-esteem is really below zero right now...
i dont have any confidence anymore...
i will always find myself drench in tears..

y is all this happening to me...

i hate you

pain!pain!pain!

2010-07-08T21:50:00.002+08:00

Having stomache cramp is no fun...

Its my 3rd day...

But still having this cramp!!

disappointed......

2010-07-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

sometimes working hard isnt good enough anymore...

u need to work SMART.... :(

2010-07-06T23:38:00.002+08:00

how do u forget someone from ur life....???
i tried not to think about the past..
but it keeps haunting me till today...

im seriously bumped...

please GOD....lead me the right path....
im not strong enuf to deal with this...

down....

2010-06-14T01:36:00.002+08:00

i hate my life...
i hate you....
i hate living like this...

no one knows wat im going through...
except for me...

i know my frens hv been trying their best to lighten my load...
thx ladies.....
but lets face it...
im the one going through this shit..
and i hate the feeling!

i really do....

im lost of wat to do...
im lost of wat to think....
im lost of wat decision i shud make....
im lost of everything.....

maybe this is the time for me to turn myself to HIM...
maybe HE could give me the ans..
maybe HE could lead me in the right direction...
maybe HE could save me.......

killing me softly......

2010-06-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

strumming my pain

with his fingers....

singing my life

with his words....

killing me softly

with his song...

killing me softly

with his song...

telling my whole life

with his words...

killing me softly.......

with his song....

emotions.

2010-05-19T19:07:00.002+08:00

excited.

confused.

tired.

disappointed.

happy.

sick.

a new life....a new beginning...

2010-04-17T21:04:00.005+08:00

its been a looooooooooong time since ive last updated my blog... haha
well...been very very very bz lately...and a LOT of things happened to me...
but im not gonna blab about it here...it'll be too long!!! hehe....

so yes.... im SINGLE.. again....
but ive been trying to put up a positive front
and to look on the bright side.. like what they usually say :
Ada hikmah di sebalik nya...

Alhamdullillah ive been well... and all thanks to my family and my
most wonderful frens.... Rini, Huda and Zuraida... :)
Thanks babez for being there when i need you guyz the most..
and also for pushing me through this BIG obstacle in my life...
to tell u the truth..i ALMOST gave up on my life..
haiz.....

but all that is the past now...

anywayz.... is planning a holiday trip with my sis...
we're going to Bali.... YEAY!! (thx rin for helping me plan this trip :P)

cant wait to relax n enjoy!!!!

damn tiring..

2009-11-23T17:17:00.003+08:00

i sense there's something is not right...

to my ladies...
if i ever said something to offend you...im sorry...
i have a feeling that you guys are mad at me over something which im not allowed to say in my blog..

well...if you are really upset over the decision that ive made,
im really sorry...
i dun mean to offend anybody..in anyway...

i juz thought that you guys understood my situation...
we've known each other since sec 1...

u'll go through this in the near future...which is soon...
i guess then u'll understand...

but i really hope that we can still be friends...
if not...its okay...

take care okay...
bye.

Happy Birthday to Me!!

2009-11-10T11:47:00.004+08:00

Yes...im now officially 23...getting older an older every year :(

hope everything goes well..

Thanks to my gurlfrenz...for all your wishes...

im happy that you still remember my birthday :P

hehe...

well...i got a Samsung Corby from my darling.... thx bie :)

Just wat i needed!!

luckily i didnt buy any hp yet...

at work now...so god damn boring!!!

ladies...enjoy your trip to Bali!!

ok...need to do counter soon....

will blog again....soon!

.....time to relax......

2009-10-23T08:31:00.003+08:00

at last!!! my ISO Audit is OVER!!!!!
can rest my mind a bit...have been stressing my brain to remember all the Policies & Procedures...
but when comes to the audit, i totally FORGOT EVERYTHING!!!

OMG!!! im lucky to have my colleagues by my side...
they did help me alot u know...
especially when my mind went blank as soon as they say...
"Ok Yati...." *poof!! there goes all my notes...flying away.......

yes i know its lame...but its my 1st audit...and i was a bit...no...VERY GABRA!!!

but...after 6 hours of torture...its finally OVER!!

yea yeay!!!

and i have a confession to make....

IM ADDICTED TO FARMVILLE!!!!

and also....

CAFE WORLD!!!!

i just cant stop playing!!!
at least its better than addicted to something else right?

but thanks to my colleagues - Cik Midah...and Elise...
Yes...im ok with Elise already...
once u get to know her better, she's not so bad after all...
(jgn perasan eh hudz.... :P )

ok...going to harvest my farm now....
dun be jealous!!! :)

short gathering at sunplaza...

2009-10-13T02:22:00.002+08:00

had a short gathering with the 3 ladies...
last min thing.

we met at coffee beans sunplaza...
kesian kan rin ny pasal...haha...
coz she had a small problem.. :)

and at last i got to know the SECRET from *ahem*
which name and news im not suppose to mention :P

i know my dear fren....im keeping my mouth *zip*
dun worry!! (girls scout's honour!) ...(like i was one before..haha)

anyways...been thinking a lot lately....
but still have to think again and again....
till im happy with the solution...

got to go and rest my eyes for a while...
and try to sleep...
need to work tomoro...
bye!

.......................................

2009-10-12T14:59:00.002+08:00

im down...i really am..
and my tagboard is having problems...
cant view my tagboard...

thats my only way to keep in touch with my friends..
after my hp got cut off..
haiz...what am i going to do..

i tried to call 2 of my best friends...but not able to get through...
its okay babes....

i'll settle this on my own then...

i just wished i could go somewhere far...where no one can disturb me..
or maybe go to a place where i can relax my mind..
and juz cry out loud...
i need a shoulder...

can anyone tell me where i can get a shoulder to cry on?
please.......

fresh start...

2009-09-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

I would like to thank my gorgeous babes for helping me open my eyes....
I know im not the same as i used to be...

and i get angry and frustrated easily....and maybe jealous sometimes (with u guys)...
im also not sure whats happening to me or my feelings...
menopause maybe?
haha...

whatever it is....im really thankful that i have u ladies as my frens..

ive read all ur blogs....regarding the incident...

but i have to disagree on some of ur comments....
sometimes reading ur blogs made me feel sad....as i feel that u guys dun really understand me...
n i also feel that u guys are putting the blame on him (my other half)

but its okay...maybe thats juz ur thinkings and futhermore i didnt explain to u properly...
and thats partly my fault...for not talking things through with u guys....

but im sure one day,we'll figure something out k?

ive decided to delete all the tags in my tagboard...coz i dun want to reminded of this tragic incident....anymore...

and oh yah....who's the special fren that zu is refering to?? and ive read at hudz blog that there's sum1 getting engaged soon?? hmmm....

im not sure if the person thats in my mind is the same person mentioned... hhmm....

anyways....im sure that i will get to know of the news one day....soon...i hope....

i need to do some thinking on my own now....its for my future...

coz i dun wan to regret...later on in life....
haiz.... *sigh*

bye for now....feel free to call me at home guys....i'll only be starting work on tuesday... :)

bye!!

Selamat Berpuasa Kepada Semua....

2009-08-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

here it is again....

the Fasting Month!!!!

I wanna wish all my Muslim friends.....

Selamat Berpuasa...dan banyak kan lah Beramal di bulan yang Mulia ini....

Wasalam....

sick....sick....sick....

2009-08-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

yes....im sick again....
down with this damn flu... :(

and im really going to miz him lotz....

will get to meet him only on our off day...saturday...
which is the 1st day of fasting... :(

so i doubt we both can go out for the whole day...

oh yah....
yesterday was my parent's anniversary....
and they decided to bring us out to eat at Seoul Garden Northpoint!!

and it was great!! family time means a lot to me....but too bad for my dear hubbie...

he has to work....

but we really had a great time yesterday....and after eating, my mum went for a 20-min back massage and Kenko...*i think*

she looked fresh after the massage...hehe....
all she said was.....sedap....

haha...cute lah she...

anyways...gotta prepare for fasting month....
and ive decided to start praying...
need to devote myself...
need to go the correct path now...

and thx to hudz for her idea of $4 per day!! ive learnt to cut down a bit..
instead of pampering myself...n wasting lots of money in the 1st week of pay...

hope i get to save enough for my wedding....

confused.....

2009-08-11T19:32:00.002+08:00

i'm torn in two.....

not sure which to choose....

confused!!!!!

pls dun make me like this....pls......

*sob*

no mood.....

2009-07-30T16:29:00.002+08:00

im SAD.... UPSET....ANGRY...FRUSTRATED....
and any other feelings that has the same meaning as CRUSHED!

its really not my fault..

I'm well!!!! Yey me!!

2009-07-30T13:23:00.002+08:00

at last...my flu's gone...and im not sick anymore!!!!!!

YEY!!!!

the past few days has been the worse days i have to go thru! being sick SUCKS!!!!
i cant do anything except to sleep the whole day...
my eyes cant even open properly...thats y ive not been blogging for a few days...

too sick to even BLOG!!! *sigh*

but now im back on track!!!

now...my dear fren...RIN...is sick..
she's juz been discharged and now on 14 days MC...
get well soon my dear...

maybe i'll go visit her this few days....but i have to be 100% free frm my flu b4 visiting her....

finishing work at 9.15pm today...
going for my jog after work...
juz jogging arnd my blks...for about 30 to 45 mins....
coz i think it will be too late to meet hudz...

maybe some other time i'll meet up u k hudz....when im working morn shift ;P

tooodles!!

tight schedule!!!!

2009-07-15T13:39:00.002+08:00

oh my...my schedule is going to be tight for the next few weeks!!!
i have to attend quite a number of briefings and courses....
haiz....never thought working in a library would have this much WORK!!

haha....so all of u out there....
of u think that people working in a library, got NOTHING to do..
well.....guess again!!!
we not only have to deal with annoying readers and books...
we also have to do work OUTSIDE of the library!!!
like going to primary and secondary schools to create awareness....
*sigh*

soon...my organizer will be filled with work things!!

will be meeting zu for a while after work...
to pass her the book which she told me to find for her...
The Messenger : The Meanings of the Life of Muhammad

hmm...interesting choice of book....

btw....im soooooooooooooo sleeeeppyyy.......

cant wait to go jogging again!!

2009-07-10T17:27:00.003+08:00

yesterday i bought myself a weighing scale..(thx hudz for reminding me)
coz im going to start weighing myself every week...
even if its just 1kg per week,i will be very happy!!
hope i can lose 1kg per week... *sigh*

anyways...ive recorded my weight yesterday...(which im NOT going to tell u ppl!) :)
and im going to work EXTRA hard to lose!!
im not going to look like this on my wedding day u know...
hehe...

and i also bought the cotton pad for facial use...
coz for the past few days, i have been using tissue instead
(yeah i know its wrong..)

now my left calf (betis in malay...im not sure if calf is the right translation) is aching!!
its been like this since yesterday...
and i have difficulty in walking properly...
maybe bcoz i havent been jogging for quite some time...
ive tried massaging it..but no difference...still VERY VERY VERY painful..

but its ok i guess...will be better soon...i think.. *sigh*

so...i will be going for a jog again later tonight...with hudz...
not sure if zu n rin coming...
will see later...

guess wat!!! i will be getting my pay soon!!! yeay me!!!!
but i have to save too....hopefully it will be enuf for my own expenses..
should start doing like hudz...
cut down daily expenses to $4 only...
so if i never use for that day, can bring forward...to weekends perhaps!!
hehe...
i should start with this coming pay...
so that i can have a GRAND wedding!!
hehe....
i will try k...no high hopes though!!

jog jog jog!!!

2009-07-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

today is the 2nd day that i went jogging...
yesterday with hudz...
today with hudz and zu...
thx to hudz for motivating me to jog...
even though at times i feel like giving up...
but she doesnt stop pushing me..till we reach the end!
thx babe!!!
really appreciate your help! :)

even though its not as long and as fast......but its quite far okay...
and i did sweat!!haha....i can feel my fats burning!!
im proud of myself for once!!
i tink ive lost about 2kg!! **roll eyes**
(i know its not true!!just put that to make myself feel better!)

anyways...im not able to go jogging tomoro...coz working afternoon shift..till 9.15pm...
so if i want to go jog...its going to be too late...as im working morning shift at 8am the next day...
haiz....
most probably friday im going for a jog again...
not sure if hudz can make it...still have to confirm again..
but if hudz cant make it, i will jog around my block..
so that i can maintain jogging...
i really wanna lose weight..BADLY!!!
so i HAVE to put in effort to jog almost every day!!!

I CAN DO IT!!!!YES I CAN!!!

anyways....juz got myself a new jogging shoes today...for $29 at BATA...
coz my old one.....well...
actually i dun have any track shoes...the last one i had was during my poly days....about 2 to 3 years ago...

so since now i got a new pair of shoes, i shouldnt have any reasons not to exercise...hehe..
ya ya....but i will try my very best to jog everyday...
i tink my gurlfrenz will be glad to help me along!!

my body is aching now....but its ok...
NO PAIN NO GAIN!!
or should i say
NO PAIN NO LOSE!!!
haha...that sounds funny...

to my gurlfrenz,
rin, hudz, zu, teeny and nor,
thanx for being my best frenz...
and thx for being there when i need a shoulder...
lurve ya gurlz!!

i hate myself!

2009-07-05T14:24:00.006+08:00

hey all...

there's sumting bothering me...
and yes ladies...elyse n rin...
u guys are right during our "shopping" trip last friday..
i know i was quiet...
too quiet...coz sumting's on my mind...which made me realise on that outing...
i know im not ususlly the noisy one...and im not the too-quite type either...

i didnt voice it out tat day..
coz i dun wanna spoil the "mood" tat day...
really sorry ladies...
didnt mean to keep things from u..

but before u read this...i apologize in advance if any of the below mentioned things did hurt anyone's feeling...

juz sumthing i want to let out..

well...here it goes....

the reason i dun always go out with u guys is becoz i dun feel i belong to the group anymore..
in terms of .... size...looks...and materials....
u guys are pretty...always trendy...
and dun have the difficulty to find clothes...accessories...shoes...and other things...

which i always dream of buying with my girlfrens..
u can just go in the shop...and they will always have your sizes....u can usually find it straight from the shelf...

u guys should be thankful that u dun have my size..
coz trust me...i would kill to be small like u ladies...
i know that nobody is to be blamed except for myself...

and i too...should be thankful to have "cukup sifat" compared to others who have disabilities..
yes...i AM thankful to GOD for giving me a "complete set"
but its really hard..

it really is...sumtimes i jus cry myself to sleep...thinking y muz i be like this...
especially shoes...

yes...i know i have BIG feet....its suppose to go well with by BIG size body.
its DAMN difficult to find the shoes which i like..to fit me nicely..
n i cant wear heals!!!!even if i want to..i have to get the 1-inch only..
coz if i were to use a normal high heels..i would be like a GIANT walking on the road...
which i hate it when people STARE at me from head to toe...thinking i was sum kind of an ALIEN from outer space!

sumtimes i juz buy things which can fit me...even though its ugly and not my type of things...same goes for clothes...

haiz...

i really dun know what to do...

it sucks when u go into a shop..and the sales person will give u a we-dun-have-big-sizes-look!and they will look at u up and down...
sumtimes i juz feel like telling them "take a picture!it will last longer!"

and when i express all these to my dear fiance, he will always look at me and say..

"dear,i love u no matter how u look.im the one that's gonna look and live with u for the rest of my life..not them...so dun care what they say or do. there are other places which have big sizes and pretty too."

yes..i know its sweet of him to say that...but i have my needs and dreams too..
and when i go out with my girlfrens,i will always feel left out...

so ladies....
im sorry to have offended u in any other ways...
i lurve u girlz...no matter what...

but now..i will try my best to shed a lot of weight...
dieting...exercising....or whatever inexpensive way i can think of...

hhmm....i will start today...

im already eating lesser and healthier at work...thats a gd start already...
but i guess it will take a very long time to lose these pounds...

for elyse n rin...i dun tink i will be going for the SK II facial...
coz i dun tink i would have enough money...i noe its juz 80 buckz....
not that i cant afford...but its better that i not go...
i know u ladies will enjoy together...which u always have...right?

so take care all....

no uniform!!!!

2009-06-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

i still havent get my uniform yet!!! boohhooo....
its going to be 2 weeks now...since i started working at sembawang library...
i think i should be getting any time soon...coz the lady who took my measurements that dat said it would take roughly 2weeks...
i think i took my measurements on 10/06/09...so after 2 weeks....
should be...by now!!!!
hhmmpphh!!!!
im tired of thinking of what to wear everytime i go to work....haiz...
cant wear to bright....not too striking....my tudung should be black....
yes...i know....
ive started to wear tudung already...
yey me!!
hehe....
all for the sake of becoming a gd wife...hehe..
hopefully im good enough for him... well...im trying to change myself...for the better...
need to be more matured and act like an adult..specifically like a gd wife...

need to go for the "kursus rumahtangga" soon....haiz....
money...money...money....
still lots more to save though....
but now im bringing home-cooked food to work...
so i can save up from buying food during my lunch break...
and yes....i cooked it myself....
thats what my mum said...
need to learn cooking...
but im doing good....
so far...no one is sick from eating my food!! hahaha...

jus kidding....need to learn more recipes from my mummy...

till then...toodles!!!

wwweeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

today...i got to do counter alone!!hehe....i was nervous at 1st..but after a few customers, i finally got the hang of it!!
yes!!but i still got more things to learn yet...
its okay...step by step...

today i work from 3.15pm to 9.15pm...yup 6 hours only!!hehe..
but before going to work, went out with my dear hubbie...
we went to causeway point to get sumthing for father's day tomorrow...
we got my dad a cool sling bag which cost $29.90 from Power 9...
which he can bring to drive his cab on weekends..
coz his bag is already torn..and he still uses it.. :(

and we got his dad a complete set of men's accesories...from John Little which cost $39.
it consists of a belt, wallet, card holder and key pouch...
it was really worth it...4 things in 1 box!!

i didnt get my dad the box cos every year, we always buy that type of promo..i wonder how many wallets and belts he's got in his cupboard!!
haha...
thats why i bought him a sling bag instead...

then we went to his house to wrap the gift up...
i wrap for his dad..and he wrap for my dad...
kinda cool... :)
so we're gonna give our dads tomorrow...hope they both like their gift!!
im off tomorrow...and also on Monday..
coz its my Mummy's bdae!!!
yey...2 days off!!

sssleeeeppppyyyyy...

2009-06-18T19:49:00.002+08:00

im soooooooo damn tired today...but i learnt a lot of new things at work!!
im proud of myself!!hehe...
we'll everything went well...i started to bring home food...
so i can save money from buying food!!
and im drinking plain water the whole day..especially at work..
i have a 1-litre pink colour water bottle...
and i drank about 1 and a half bottle of water every day at work..

anyways..im off tomorrow...and so is my hubbie!!hehe...
at last after 1 week, i get to spend time with him the whole day...
cant wait for tomorro...

but im not sure where we are going..coz im suppose to plan for tomorro's outing...

hmmpphh!!im out of places!!
haiz...have to crack my brain out to tink...

still planning for another girl's outing with the ladies...trying to get all 6 of us together...

bad service at CAVANA!

2009-06-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

I went to have my lunch with my dear hubbie at CAVANA sunplaza...and believe me..
it was the WORST service i have ever gotten!
i noe that we dun have to pay service charge..but it doesnt mean that they can give a POOR SERVICE!
im sooo disappointed!
here's the story:

1stly, i ordered my Hot plate Black pepper beef with rice as i pointed it on the menu which is on the counter.and so did my hubbie, he ordered sweet & sour chicken rice..he too,said and pointed out on the menu.
without even repeating our orders,she asked for the payment and gave us both our drinks.
so i thought that since it was only 2 orders,there's nothing that can go wrong with our orders. I didnt bother to look at the receipt as i ASSUME that everything was correct.

then when we were seated, one of the staff came & put an order on our table.
Guess what order that was??
it was Hot Plate Teriyaki with Spaggetti!!!
It was totally not my order!!!
then i quickly looked at my receipt. There it was!!! The staff keyed as Hot Plate Teriyaki!!
I went to the counter..saw the manager and inform her that the staff keyed in my order wrongly.

Without apologizing,she told the kitchen to re-do my order.
I was totally pissed off..especially at the manager for not handling my complaint properly...i just expected an apology!!thats not hard to do!

after about 5 min...my order came...

and guess wat!!! it was wrong again!!!

they serve me Hot plate Black pepper Chicken with spaghetti!!
omg!!! i was in the verge of shouting at the manager & staff that took my order! but i just remain calm..and inform the staff AGAIN that teh order was wrong...

the manager did not even come to apologize for this round again!

another 5 mins...came my order...
and guess again!!
WRONG!!!!
they gave me Hot plate black pepper CHICKEN with rice!!
haiz.....
wat is so difficult to get what i ordered!??
i ordered Hot plate Black pepper BEEF with rice!!

the least the manager could do was to ask me whats my order when i complain to her in the 1st place!
so that i dun have to keep waiting & waiting..n they too dun have to waste their food and time and energy on the WRONG order which they gave me!

thsi is the last time that i will eat at CAVANA SUNPLAZA..i have been to other CAVANAs..but all were GOOD.except this one...

anyways...im learning a lot of things everyday...today i did at counter...hhmm..
getting the hang of it...

last pics with my fav staffs...

2009-06-15T21:45:00.001+08:00

Hmmm....smoking under a No Smoking sign...hehe...

From left: Yun Selenge, Ijah Hot, Atiqah Mereps & Ilah Kening..
Top 4 Fav staffs...especially the one in black...haha...

Smilez!!! (omg..im too cute!!)

As usual...the chong in the middle of the group..

@ the cashier...my last project was the Pans (Personal, Regular, Large)

Its for all the irritating customers who keep asking,

"How big is your personal pan?"

"How big is your large pan?"

At least..i leave the place in good shape...all my jobs and things i need to do..

all done...

do well..Toa Payoh Pizza Hut...

Dun always give face to irritating customers!

1st day at sembawang library!

2009-06-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

Hey y'all...
was my 1st day at work...
kinda boring..coz all the way..talking and talking..
it makes me bored to death!!
i almost fall asleep in front of my manager when she was briefing to me!!
haha..GOSH!!
dun wanna leave a bad impression on my 1st day!!
heeesshh....anyways..
the work is okay...
5-day work week...which means TWO full off day!! :)
alternate weekends off...
and only need to work abt 41 hrs per week!!!
im still trying to get used to the job there...need to keep all the KIDS quiet!!
haiz....back to customer service again... :(
well....as long as it pays me good...hehe..

anyways...me n him now okay...its just a small misunderstanding...
coz both stress out...financially...
its okay...we'll get thru this!

1st day of WORK tomoro!!!

2009-06-14T14:22:00.002+08:00

yey!!!im starting my 1st day of work tomoro!!!cant wait...
i have to be at bugis library at 9am tomoro..the lady told me to be about 5 to 10 mins earlier.
they will start with a briefing 1st...im not sure how many people will be starting tomoro...but i just hope im not the only one...
but then again...i hope its not to many people there..hehe...
malu lah... ;)

after about 1 hour (i guess..) of briefing..then i have to go to my post out library...which is SEMBAWANG Publi Library!! So near my house!!!
hehe...but thats not an excuse of waking up late k..

and also..its near Rin's house!!so maybe...we'll get to meet!! hopefully im not too bz.. :(

need to do a Checlist..
1) medical examination----DONE!
2) do my uniform----DONE!
3) prepare things to bring for tomoro----DONE!
4) paid all my bills----DONE!
5) prepare what clothes to put on tomoro----NOT DONE!!!

still have to wait for the uniform...they'll send it to sembawang library when its ready..so for the time being, i have to prepare my clothes!!

alright...need to search through my cupboard!!

R u the one for me...

2009-06-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hmm..we've been fighting quite often lately...
i just dun understand y u cant trust me..we've been together for so many years..
and we've known each other..like practically our whole life!!
n y cant u just forgive my past mistakes & look forward to a bright future??
GUYS!!!i simply cant understand them!!
i feel like pulling my hair out every time u got upset over small little things!!!
aaarrrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN!!!

yes..i know i did a huge mistake in the past...but its been 4 to 5 years & u still cant forgive & forget???how do u expect to have a gd future together w/o bringing up about the past EVERYTIME we argue or have a misunderstanding??
aaarrghhh!!GOD!!

sumtimes i juz feel like i wanna end my life...so that u will realize that u should have appreciated me more rather than accusing & blaming me for things which i NEVER DID!!! i hope that u will realize..maybe one day...that no other girl could have tolerated you as much as i have!

n this is the thanks that i get.
Thank you soooooooooooooooo much!!!

WATEVER!!!GO F**K YOURSELF!!!!!

at last!!

2009-06-13T02:45:00.001+08:00

Phew!!! at last i got the time to edit my blog..
my blog undergo a minor "construction" due to my itchy fingers...
adding this and that...
till i accidentally deleted sumthing..
n POOOFF!!
everything disppears...
hmm...but its okay...
now im back on track...
i think my blogskin is a bit boring..
Haiz...it will just do for now...maybe...

counting down to the day i will start work at NLB..
cant wait!!!
just 2 more days...
yes!!

ladiez meetupz

2009-06-09T15:52:00.003+08:00

cant wait to have dinner together later..
with the ladiez...
rin..hudzz..zu...teeny...
too bad nor cant join us...
c ya!!
muuuaacckkzzz!!!!

Here's the pics!!not a lot...coz most of the time we were talking & talking...hahakz!

Hudz..Rin..Zuzi...

Us 5 ladies...

Me with crazy teeny..

Well ladies...i enjoyed these gathering...

should do this more often k...

till next time!

joB cOmpleTe!

2009-06-08T22:00:00.001+08:00

Yes!! after 4 hours of standing and sitting...
i finished the whole BIG basket of clothes and pants!!
yes...its a DAMN huge pile!
and im proud of myself!!
Fuuuhh...damn tired now..
gotta sleep early today...

next task:
to clean my room...getting rid of all stuffs tats of no use to me anymore...
yes im throwing all out...not clinging on to anything from the past...
haiz...maybe an exeption of juz my teddys...
and maybe the cute bears...
and also maybe....
damn its difficult!! guess i juz have to close my eyes and throw...

mOney!!!

2009-06-08T14:45:00.001+08:00

Yes!!at last...
today i can have my pay!!!!
since i've resigned from pizza hut on 4th june, they have decided give my pay on 5th of june together with last months pay (may)...
haiz...
all my billz...have to wait...
but its okay...
i cashed in the cheque on friday...right after getting it from my HQ..
i thought it was a cash cheque..but the lady at POSB counter said its not...
so i can only draw it out on monday after 2pm..

which is TODAY!!!

YES!!! at last!!

but before i could go out and enjoy my hard earn money...

my bills and parents come 1st...

haiz...
and also need to save up money for my wedding...

which i think needs to be postponed...for another year...
haiz....
what to do...
singapore not cheap..
now i need to spend less...
and save more...

u can do it Yatie!!

another $9000 more to go...

friends forever...

2009-06-07T13:20:00.001+08:00

Picture Perfect!!!

We'll always be freinds forever gurlz....
>>thanks for being here with me on this important day..

LURVE you gurlz!!

oN my enGagemeNt..270708...

im pizza-free

2009-06-05T12:54:00.001+08:00

we'll.. after 4 years as a part-timer...and 2 years as a manager...in this stupid f**cked up company...
i'm finally OUT!!!!
feel so gooooood....
but another part of me....still aches...
after so much that ive done for my own outlet....
now i have to leave it all behind...
*sigh*
well....they dun deserve my hardwork...
my last day at tpy pizza hut was on 4th june...
a teared a bit before leaving...
thats life...
cant get too attached to anything...or its gonna be harder to leave..
nothing last forever...
now...

waiting for my new job..
as a library officer..
yah...laugh all u want...
but its time for me to lay low a bit...

no need to be a leader..tired of being one...
haiz....
maybe working in a library will be less stressfull...
maybe....

dunno...

things for me to do..
1)do new specs..(yes im blind..)
2)go for medical checkup (for the new job)
3)eat less...(ya right! but i do need to lose some pounds..)

hhmm...gotta get started!
ok go!!

boring day...

2009-04-03T09:30:00.000+08:00

off day..
always a boring day..
but its great to rest at home..
release all the stress..
especially from fussy customers..
who tinks that they are always right!
but guess wat..they're not ALWAYS right okay!
hhmmpphh!!!
really f*?ked up with all of them..
but actualli not all...
some regular customers are understanding
especially when it comes to peak periods..
lurve them!!
but to those who tinks they can just complain n get a free meal,
tink again!!
what goes arnd...comes arnd...
so one day it will sooon happen to you back!
getting f*?ked even though its not your fault!!

hhmmpphh!!nvm...
i shud just rest my mind today..
n stop tinking bout work...since its my off day..

wish i can go somewhere peaceful..
relax...
with the wind blowing in my face...

hhmm....
wat a scene....
wish i cud be your side dear...